Particle Board Nirvana

2004-04-19T17:35:00.000-04:00

new journal:

http://www.livejournal.com/users/fallenbohemian/

2004-03-12T16:14:00.000-05:00

my sacrilege...

But, with only the Old Testament covered, it leaves us with a burning question - what are Jesus' stats? Could Jesus take on a mature adult red dragon single-handedly, or would he need the apostles to back him up with some buffing, healing and ranged attacks? How much is Judas' backstab bonus? What level campaign are the Gospels? Naturally, I've thought about this quite a bit.

The first conclusion many people will jump to is that Jesus was a high-level character. But this conclusion doesn't stick with me. While healing the sick and creating food are excellent abilities, they're not that high in spell level. Remove disease and create food and water are 3rd level cleric spells. Sure, raise dead is a 5th level spell, but Jesus only raised the dead once or twice, leading me to believe he cast the spell from a scroll. Let's face it, Jesus was all about talk and not about casting high-level spells or winning folks over with combat. His specialty was actually the Diplomacy ability. As a half-celestial, Jesus had a +4 Charisma, and I'll bet he maxed that stat, meaning he ended up with a 22 Charisma at 1st level. (In my divine order, God uses the point-by system, meaning Jesus can min-max his stats.) This alone gives Jesus a +6 bonus to Diplomacy. Now, on a good day, Jesus could sway an "Unfriendly" NPC to "Friendly", which is a DC 25 Diplomacy check. Now, we'll define a "good day" as a roll of 15 on the old twenty-sided die. That roll, plus his +6 bonus from Charisma gives him a total of 21. He only needs 4 ranks of Diplomacy to make that up. If we consider Jesus a 5th level cleric, he could have 8 ranks of Diplomacy, giving him a +14 to his roll for Diplomacy checks.

Now, I bet you're asking why I peg Jesus so low on the level chart. "Surely, Chuck must have something against Jesus." I promise you, it's nothing like that. But God gifted Jesus with some powers, and I think Jesus tried to use them as best he could to help save the world. But you'll note that Jesus never used flame strike or greater planar ally in the New Testament. Imagine, if you will, Jesus confronting King Herod with a well-placed pillar of holy flame, damage being half-fire, half-divine. Being a King, Herod was obviously a high-level fighter who had retired, so he would have survived, but it would have given him something to think about. The New Testament is a low-magic world - that kind of magical effect, you can really impress a simple fighter. Besides, with his half-celestial template and 5 levels of cleric, Jesus is an ECL 9 character - not too shabby, overall. If it makes you feel more comfortable for the son of God to be a higher-level character, give him a few levels of bard or rogue, to buff up the Diplomacy and other Charisma skills. I'm convinced that when Jesus said, "God, why have you forsaken me?" he was really implying, "DM, why can't I have some more levels, dude?"

In my opinion, the New Testament is a low-level campaign designed for those who are strongly interested in roleplaying and character development. The adventure has a very tragic ending that could be very exciting for folks who are interested in that kind of thing, but hack-and-slash players will find the Old Testament to be a lot more interesting.

- from evil ninja

2004-02-26T21:01:00.000-05:00

weird things...

i find some weird stuff when im browsing the internet. check this out:
http://www.hugi.is/hahradi/bigboxes.php?box_id=51208&f_id=681

2004-02-26T15:43:00.000-05:00

cant wait til summer...

the long awaited sequel to the popular ffvii video game, advent children, is to come out in summer of 2004. the trailer (which you can download to see for yourself) looks to be an excellent movie, reminiscent of the last final fantasy movie. here are a few pics for you to enjoy, assuming that you are actually in to these cg movies and such.

trailer screens:
midgar in ruins
sephy in the fire
sephy profile
laying aerith to rest
cloud close-up
silver-haired threat *reflect*
cloud and the buster sword
vincent...
barrett
cloud in the aisle
close-up in the church
the lifestream

other:
poster image
download trailer (for windows users, right click and go to "save target as...")

2004-02-25T06:57:00.000-05:00

one song...

today is gonna be a weird kinda day, weird schedule, and some other stuffs. well, for all those in on that damned pool, the winner is feb 24.

find / glory /in a song that rings true / truth like a blazing fire / an eternal flame / find / one song / a song about love / glory / from the soul of a young man / a young man / find / the one song / before the virus takes hold / glory / like a sunset / one song / to redeem this empty life / time flies / and then - no need to endure anymore / time dies

2004-02-24T18:58:00.000-05:00

porkenblog...

for those of you interested, i made a desktop wallpaper. i think im getting good enough with adobe photoshop that i will take requests, provided its a resonable request, and preferably video game related, cuz im good and knowledgeable with those. away from the shameless plug, heres a link to the desktop wallpapers, conveniently separated into (600x800) format and (768x1024) format, for those of you with different size monitors. im just too nice...

today was an interesting day. for those of you who arent in the know (not like theres any of you left, i find everything out last), laylas b/f broke up with her, which makes me sad, because they were cute together. however, she is taking out her frustration on me... well, she says that its not just me, but it seemed to be just me.

my academic stats: GPA: 3.8010 RANK: 65 (out of 500+) top 12%

damn my luck. you have to be in the top 5% to get the palmetto fellowes scholarship. oh well, i can still get the life or the hope. whatever...

today was a crappy day, all in all. everyone was either having a bad day themselves, bugging me, worrying me, or pissing me off. its like today was designed to destroy every inkling of happiness in existance. like in child lit today, after book talks, we are supposed to have a discussion, and if the class isnt playing along, ms dowd will help us along. but when i went up to do my discussion, she just let me sit there and look like an idiot...

of course, second period was fun. our sub was telling us about the appropriateness of "inside voices." everyone was giggling. ill admit it, even i was caught giggling. i mean, laughing, cuz i dont giggle ^.-

ms cone is a bitch

the gospel choir is doing a production entitled "if the preacher aint right" this weekend, and they used on of our giant flats for a backdrop for their show. only problem is they painted over our guys and dolls scene with a boring rendition of jesus... and hes a brotha. now, dont get me wrong, i know that jesus was ethnic. everyone in that area at that time was. but he was by no stretch of the imagination full-on black (nor was he white). it was just amusing to take in when you are so used to walking past a giant city skyline as you walk across the stage.

i cant wait til next years production. im finally up for a lead, and i fully intend on getting one.

im bored now, so im gonna go hit www.newgrounds.com and see if i can find something fun to watch.

2004-02-21T01:29:00.000-05:00

camelot: sat, feb 20, 2004...

good photos:

not so great pictures (blurry):

2004-02-20T17:54:00.000-05:00

get fuzzy...

ok, so tonight, i am taking in a show; i get to go to summerville high school (alone) to see camelot (im gonna take/post pictures here either late-nite tonite or tomorrow). i already know the show is gonna be good. wait, i should call kyle to see if im even allowed to take pictures. ill check...

*calls kyle's cell*

...ok, im going to take some good pics. i absolutely cannot wait to see kyle, lizzy, and stephie up on stage. and i wanna see kyle's knight garb. but no hanging out afterwards, nor on sunday, so i prolly wont go to the sunday show. whatever the case, i gotta go to dinner first, so im out.

later...

2004-02-18T18:48:00.000-05:00

thinkkaman...

ok, i think im gonna pull a linzy. linzy, inspired by geoffs acknowledgement for the little things, created a list of things she is thankful for from her LJ friends. well, i dont have an LJ, so im gonna just go thru all the friends i can think of, or until my hands get tired.

well, here i go...

kim - thank you for just accepting me, and not trying to make me into what you want me to be as a boyfriend. thank you for just letting me find that niche myself. thank you for just being yourself, instead of trying to please people; there arent enough people in the world who realize that if you live life pleasing others, youll never find true happiness. and furthermore, just thank you... *muah*
kristen - thank you for always listening to my problems. thank you for always being there for me, as a sister, as a friend, and as someone who cared. thank you for never being blindly optimistic, and for having a smile on your face, even when life wasnt going your way.
lizzy - thank you for always knowing how to make me laugh. thank you for always keeping my best intrests at heart. thank you for always knowing whats best for me, even if i dont. thank you for not being afraid to tell me that im an idiot, especially when it was true. thank you for just being my friend, even when i was a jerk to you.
kyle - thank you for never being selfish, even when i was. thank for always putting up with me. thank you for always knowing how to make a good joke better. you never fail to make me laugh, and i will always appreciate that. thank you for being my first true friend at dock street; if i hadnt met you, i might not have met anyone, really.
geoff - thank you for always being willing to help, even when there is nothing in it for you. thank you for always knowing how to laugh at the world, even if no one else is laughing. thank you for always doing whats right, even if you are doing it alone. and thank you for not changing who you are, just because you take crap from certain nameless people. thank you for never forgetting that there is always time for friends.
joey - thank you for making me into what i am today, even if your methods were a little unorthodox. thank you for teaching me the values of brotherhood, and thank you for introducing me to the brothers i now have come to love like family. thank you for teaching me to pick my battles, even if you didnt pick all the right ones yourself.
stephie - thank you for teaching me about the VV club. thank you for being willing to talk to me, even though you hardly know/knew me.
linzy h - thank you for always giving me the advice i really needed, even if i didnt take it. thank you for being my older sister, and thank you for always giving me your honest opinion, even if it was possibly painful. thank you for never trying to impress everyone, and thank you for standing up for your opinion, even if you got called a b**** for it.
linzy l - thank you for always being the voice of reason. thank you for inspiring this rant. thank you for always being willing to listen to me, and willing to talk me thru each issue that i had. thank you for making gem happy.
amanda c - in a literal sense, thank you for being the sister i never really had. thank you for introducing me to things i would have never experienced otherwise. thank you for never sacrificing your past for the sake of the future, and thank you for being yourself, even if thats not what people wanted from you.

i know this is only ten people, but there will be more. just leave me a message and ill write you into the next one of these. i already know a few people i need to add in (such as elese). just be patient.

byes...

2004-02-18T17:19:00.000-05:00

a few links...

to everyone in my english class, the following might come in useful:

sparknotes.com: A Farewell To Arms
this weeks vocab information

2004-02-17T21:00:00.000-05:00

"the bill of no rights"

(a la mitchell kaye)

we, the sensible people of the united states, in an attempt to help everyone get along, restore some semblance of justice, avoid any more riots, keep our nation safe, promote positive behavior and secure the blessings of debt-free liberty to ourselves and our great-great-great grandchildren, hereby try one more time to ordain and establish some common sense guidelines for the terminally whiny, guilt-ridden, delusional and other liberal bedwetters. we hold these truths to be self-evident: that a whole lot of people were confused by the bill of rights and are so dim that they require a bill of no rights.

ARTICLE I: you do not have the right to a new car, big screen tv or any other form of wealth. more power to you if you can legally acquire them, but no one is guaranteeing anything.

ARTICLE II: you do not have the right to never be offended. this country is based on freedom, and that means freedom for everyone - and not just you! you may leave the room, turn the channel, express a different opinion, etc., but the world is full of idiots, and probably always will be.

ARTICLE III: you do not have the right to be free from harm. if you stick a screwdriver in your eye, learn to be more careful. do not expect the tool manufacturer to make you and all your relatives independently wealthy.

ARTICLE IV: you do not have the right to free food and housing. americans are the most charitable people to be found, and will gladly help anyone in need, but we are quickly growing weary of subsidizing generation after generation of professional couch potatoes who achieve nothing more than the creation of another generation of professional couch potatoes.

ARTICLE V: you do not have the right to free health care. that would be nice, but from the looks of public housing, we're just not interested in health care.

ARTICLE VI: you do not have the right to physically harm other people. if you kidnap, rape, intentionally maim or kill someone, don't be surprised if the rest of us want to see you fry in the electric chair.

ARTICLE VII: you do not have the right to the possessions of others. if you rob, cheat or coerce away the goods or services of other citizens, don't be surprised if the rest of us get together and lock you away in a place where you still won't have the right to a big-screen color tv or a life of leisure.

ARTICLE VIII: you don't have the right to demand that our children risk their lives in foreign wars to soothe your aching conscience. we hate oppressive governments and won't lift a finger to stop you from going to fight if you'd like. however, we do not enjoy parenting the entire world and do not want to spend so much of our time battling each and every little tyrant with a military uniform and a funny hat.

ARTICLE IX: you don't have the right to a job. all of us sure want all of you to have one, and will gladly help you along in hard times, but we expect you to take advantage of the opportunities of education and vocational training laid before you to make yourself useful.

ARTICLE X: you do not have the right to happiness. being an american means that you have the right to pursue happiness - which by the way, is a lot easier if you are unencumbered by an overabundance of idiotic laws created by those of you who were confused by the bill of rights.

2004-02-13T09:31:00.000-05:00

x plus the square root of 2, x minus the square root of 2...

i just had to rub that in for kim.

i am content. no. more than content.

i finally took erik's advice and switched to haloscan, and i must admit, the services are actually quite nice. took me very little time to set the whole thing up. actually, i got it all up and running in under two minutes. unfortunately, all my old posts are gone. that means if you ever left a comment on my site, it is now gone, and i expect there to be more now, so people... get to typin'

im sad about valentines day. i wanted to take kim out for a nice dinner, but she has all-region band concert on saturday afternoon, and then shes sticking around til 6, so she wont be home til like 8:30. no fancy valentines day dinner. no sweet surprises waiting for her when she gets home. nothing.

of course... i probably will be taking her to dinner on sunday. i just really wanted to do it on valentines. i think its much better then. a romantic kinda thing. somehow i feel ive lost my romantic touch tho. i wanted to do something sweet. mom (ms. batts) recommended that i go buy some flower petals from the florist and put them in her room. now i will emphasize this, because this is important: i do not need a count of B and E on my criminal record. so that idea, however sweet, is not going to happen. i still have a little time to think of something, but its not likely.

kim is at all-region right now and im in a romantic mood now. that sucks. for the first time in three months, ive regained my romantisism, and kims gone. just great.

byes.

2004-01-05T23:01:00.000-05:00

last time i write this damn post...

ok. so there are only this will be my next to last post, until i can prove to my parents that i can get all b's on my progress report/report card. that wont be too hard, but i need to finish this damn essay still. so now that im writing this post for the third time, it seems to be my personal goal to get the whole damn thing published.

-=- YESTERDAY -=-

ok. pretty normal day. woke up early. went to church with my grandparents and parents. i keep falling asleep in church, but thats because my church is so boring. but its cool. we went to lunch afterwards at some place down by my church. the food sucked. and by sucked, i mean sucked. but thats cool. its nice to spend time with family. i did.

then i came home, and there was a message on the answering machine. now thats not that odd, for me to get a message, but all of my friends love to hang up on the answering machine. but this was different. there was a voice. kim inviting me to go to the movies. now this was great. cuz first off, its kim. and second off, its getting me out of the house. thats awesome. anyways, they sprung me, and we left.

so kim came to pick me up, and we went off to the church. by "we" i mean kim, me, lanie, and lainey (dont get confused: lanie = kims sister, lainey = new person). we got to the church, and i decided to scare davis some. then we followed lindsay to the movies. well, actually, lindsay has no clue how to get to places, so we only followed her about halfway before we took interstate. we got there about six minutes before her. *minor victory*

well. we watched LOTR3. kim and i sat together, and by "sat together", assume im using the dramatic quotation fingers and such. i mean, nothing happened, because lanie was sitting opposite of me, but it was still nice to sit with her for 3.20 hrs (^.^ im a pathetic loser). when christina and lindsay went off to the bathroom or something, davis and i had a lil chat. in short, i told him that if anything did happen between them, that he would treat her with respect and kindness, because shes my sister, and i will protect her at all costs.

i got no problem goin back to prison

so we took lainey home, and we were gonna go back to kims house where there were going to be people waiting for us, but since everyone flaked, we elected to go back to my house and watch some movies. we watched "oh brother where art thou?" and some episodes of aqua teen hunger force. i think kim likes that show now.

no. dont do it. thats exactly what he wants. so lets do the opposite. prepare to be immortal!

it was great just sitting there on the futon watching movies with her. ^.^

and then, on to tonight...

-=- TODAY -=-

skipping the boring part where i did my double-entry journals...

i went to kims house with mark. he is such a loser. i mean, i am too, but he is definately close, if not as much of a loser as i am. and thats hard. we all watched hebrew hammer at kims, and i sat with kim again (^.^). nothing happened of course, cuz whitney was on the other side (i hate people). not that anything would have happened with david and mark right there.

oh well... thats all...

2004-01-01T23:48:00.000-05:00

mission accomplished...

well, what can i say. i stand before you a changed man. ummm... *stands* now i stand before you a changed man. thats better.

lets start from the beginning, and get to the greatest ending...

so i got up. fed the dogs across the street at mr steves. came home. went over to johns. we talked about me wanting to borrow the silvia. then john and i watched volcano high and played dothack infection. that was cool. sweet game.

came home. pretended to do my reading. then we went to dinner at logans. logans has good food, and actually a pleasant atmosphere (for a steakhouse). the peanut-shells-on-the-floor thing have never done it for me, tho. on the radio was some good music. and i know more old music trivia than dad. he didnt remember who did the song "come on eileen" and i did. it was dexy's midnight runners. i think dad was surprised that i knew that. but then again, i love that song... or at least the end of it.

the i went to go see "school of rock" with dave, nick, kim, and allison. that was a really funny. then nick and dave went home, kim took allison home, and kim and i went to christina's to hang out for a few minutes. i met davis (i think i scared him ^.^) (lindsay needs to make up her mind, already)

then kim took me home. and to skip an awkward recount of events, im no longer single, which is good for me, cuz ive been wanting to go out with kim for a while now. finally...

but that was my climactic finish.

night...

2004-01-01T12:28:00.000-05:00

emotions...

^.^
happy face

-.-
bored/sad face

>.<
frustrated/angry face o.o o.0
amazed/surprised face(s)

*.*
confused/daydreaming face

^.-
winking face

2004-01-01T01:43:00.000-05:00

happy new years...

so i failed my goal. i couldnt. but the party was nice. beat up dave *evil stare*, and i watched fireworks in peace. saw the ball drop while sitting in kims lap, tim tried to feel my ass, swung on the swings with tim, tickled kim on the floor ^.^, listened to breakfast at tiffanys, slow danced with nick (at least theres one decent royce left).

went to the mall, and got a new car. im happy about that. its the MACH5 (i was in a speed racer mood).

OMG. they just quoted an entire line from pulp fiction on adult swim. it was so cool. "i dont feel like doing 'quentin tarantino' theatre anymore". lol. that was the best. click right here to go to the pulp fiction script, as written by a fan on geocities.

"ok, yeah its gonna hurt. im not gonna lie to you. the initial blow will hurt like you wont frickin' believe..."

didnt do any of my reading today. at all. i finished my books. need to get all those double entry journal thingys from kim. maybe she can come over and watch those movies, give me the double entry journals, and give me a chance to complete my mission. ^.^

this is a good end to a good night. feliz año nuevo...

2003-12-30T23:58:00.000-05:00

i have no problem going back to prison...

so today was uneventful, like all my other days. im wrapping up "billy budd" finally, so i can put aside all of this foolish english stuff. itll be much better once i can get this all out of the way. the story sucks, no thanks to one herman melville. he cant seem to write more than one page before he tries to lose my intrest. jerk.

joey came over. beat him in THUG. he got me back in SSBM tho. i deserved it. the THUG was fun tho. ive never been challenged that much.

im a poor speller...

dinner was nice. taco salad. mmm. taco salad. mom hogged all the guacamole tho. glutton.

moms finally starting to get into her new job. i think she might start liking it. i think she has issues with just enjoying what shes doing, but i can understand how hard it is to acclimate to new surroundings. especially with her having been laid off for four months. i just hope she cheers up. she rarely seems genuinely happy anymore.

still looking forward to the new years party. the surprise might be more difficult with my stalker there, but ill will go thru with it anyways. im tired of being so timid. ive just decided. my new years resolution is to be more assertive and commanding of my surroundings, and stop letting life happen to me.

i think im gonna watch a movie. maybe ill watch some ATHF now. who knows.

2003-12-29T21:24:00.000-05:00

today 4 u...

so today was slow. not like "its taking forever for night to come", more like "it feels like its been an hour since the second hand last moved". and i got up at 1. and my day is still slow. its gay...

did my reading... some of it. im not sure. do i have to read all those stories, or JUST "billy budd". i hope i dont have to read them all. that would suck. the book is really long. the crucible was good tho. surprisingly. i was shocked that the book ended in its climax.

i have a surprise planned for the night of the 31st. its going to be Y2K+4. i am definately looking forward to nicks new years party. definately gonna be a night to remember. (yay for finally getting my act together.)

ive done some thinking too, and i think i have come to a decision (i can play that game too kim. you wanna write vaguely, i can too).

2003-12-28T12:52:00.000-05:00

firesign...

dogs flew spaceships
aztecs invented the vacation...
men and women are the same sex
our forefathers took drugs
your brain is not the boss...
everything you know is wrong!

2003-12-27T23:49:00.000-05:00

profound revelations...

went to johns early to get the cd of firesign theatre. i love firesign theatre. go here.

a childs garden of grass
a true classic about possession, use of, and care for weed. really is quite funny. maybe you all should listen to it sometime. i dunno. up to you. you can probably get it off of kazaa. i didnt, but i bet mr john did. not that hard to get stuff that obscure off of kazaa. another good one to download might be "the adventures of nick danger". great stuff.

we went to best buy today. i bought THUG. im gonna go play it in a few minutes. great game. place was packed. i still need to return "viewtiful joe".

kim picked me up to go to outback, but the wait was too long, so we went to ruby tuesdays. it was great, and then afterwards we bothered amanda. nick, david, and i went to the arcade, and the girls went somewhere. i played one game of initial d. we left and went to see peter pan. great movie, but that kid has alot of pent up sexual tension. well, after "exploding", not too much tension anymore.

kim took me home...

then nick and i talked. and talked. about his transgressions, and about my teenage-life-crisis. god only knows where im going with all this. i feel like im going in circles. spinning me in circles. and... something about the ages. (if you didnt get that, its from a song called "circles" on homestarrunner.com). i dont know what to do. i feel like im stuck. cant go back now, but theres not too much reason to stay. im in a losing spiral.

and i have yet another "person" to add to my list... (the previous paragraph and the current have nothing to do with each other, just a forewarning.) i was surprised to find out who, but its not like it changes anything.

today was just an all around great birthday. im just glad i have friends who love me. even if im not successful with females, i have friends, and thats more important to me than anything else...

nite all... (hasta mañana, mi amor)

2003-12-27T18:56:00.000-05:00

16, 16, 16...

happy birthday to me. -.-

-.- *daydreams*

today is pretty boring so far. i hope that dinner with kim, christina, david, and nick goes well. movie afterward: peter pan. looks good.

kims here...

2003-12-27T09:31:00.000-05:00

special day for me...

just got up. you know, its funny. i went to sleep about three hours after my parents, and im still up before them. oh well, what can you do.

i got home at 2.40 this morning, and due to the fact that there is a mixed audience for my blog, ill just keep what i want to say to myself. ill say something along the lines of "it was alot of fun." we went to kims house about 9 to watch a movie. decided to get to the bowling alley at 11.45, even tho we couldnt bowl til 12.15. thanks bunches kim; wouldnt even let us go to wendys.

the bowling went well. that whole thing between christina and david is kinda depressing, but i made her happy (well, as happy as she could have been). lanie hits harder than i thought, but i will still destroy her. kim made fun of me, and id do the thing where i get all offended, but im starting to get used to the constant verbal abuse.

i think i might be in love with derek ^.^ (just kidding, derek)

ok, today is the day that the horoscope kim showed me comes into effect. i only hope theres some merit to all of that rash generalization. if not, at least its an excuse to "try." i wonder if were still going to dinner tonite... *thinks*

byes...

2003-12-25T21:56:00.000-05:00

wierd...

this is disturbing.

2003-12-25T20:37:00.000-05:00

feliz navidad, mi amor...

today has been great. gifts, and family, and food, and im happy. i got the following stuff:

2 cds (broadway and clay aiken)
5 dvds (athf, family guy, lion king, matrix revolutions, and lotr2)
clothes (a nice shirt and pants)
2 video games (zelda and viewtiful joe)
a broadway snowglobe (its freakin awesome)
$50 (nothing says love like money)
nomad jukebox zen nx 20gb

i think i did well. the new mp3 player holds about 5k - 8k songs. and i found out that im f***ed into a corner about my "intrest". life sucks. "rent" music does kinda depress me, but its so truthful, plus, its been a while since ive listened to it. ive missed rent. been about two months since ive listened to anything rent. i think im gonna listen to this rent playlist again. *presses button*

im bored...

xmas is almost over, and it was everything i had hoped for. ^.^ its not quite over yet. still one more person left on the list. its not quite ten yet. god save me...

i might go watch some family guy actually. or some athf. or lotr2. see, thats the beauty of having multiple options. i finally saw "pirates of the carribean" today. it was really good. really funny too. might watch it again too. probably not...

nite... and merry christmas...

2003-12-23T23:59:00.000-05:00

herman melville = satan...

today was BORING. john came over at noon, and we hung out til 6. mom came home at 1 to eat lunch. HER lunch. oh, did i forget to mention. she got taco bell. did i get any? let me check. NO!

home is behind / the world ahead / and there are many paths to tread / through shadow / to the edge of night / until the stars are all alight / mist and shadow / cloud and shade / all shall fade / all shall fade

nonetheless... didnt get my chores done, nor my reading. still reading those damn books. i have to. but im done with the first one, and i have to do the dbl-entry journals. i need to ask someone how im supposed to do them, exactly. i also need to get the last book(s) from kim. im gonna be screwed.

the sun also rises turns out to be a good book after all...

i find my pathetic existance is not getting any better. i find my own actions inhibited by my own indecisiveness and fear. but i think everything will end well. i think that this story just might have a happy ending. this cloud might have a proverbial "silver lining".

"yes," i said. "isnt it pretty to think so?"

2003-12-23T22:52:00.000-05:00

inconsequential...

nobody ever lives their life all the way up except for bullfighters

love is a luzury reserved for those who have the capacity for it. thats what i think. for one to have a capacity for love, they must first have the capacity for integrity and understanding, for, after all, these are far more basic and simplistic virtues. just because one is capable of love does not mean that they are blessed enough to find the raw, pure love that everyone hopes to attain. but still, there is still that one dream everyone has to find their one true love... their "soulmate"...

and to think: there are those who truly believe that their soulmate could be found. finding true love is not quite as complicated as picking the one person destiny has chosen for you out of a list of three billion candidates. true love can be more simply found by just opening your self to accept the love that another gives. true love does not come from fate, nor destiny, and certainly not by chance. it comes from honesty, integrity, and understanding that most people are capable of love, and are willing to give it to someone who will just take the time to care.

2003-12-23T21:21:00.000-05:00

information on summer reading...

for some additional help to anyone who might be sharing honors eng III next semester with me, the following links might be of some help to you. they sure are saving me:

sparknotes.com: the sun also rises
sparknotes.com: the crucible
sparknotes.com: billy budd

2003-12-23T17:24:00.000-05:00

the levin returns...

which Initial D character are you?
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2003-12-23T01:11:00.000-05:00

create your own adventure...

want your own online journal. click on one of the following links to test your writing skills/attention span on the media mainstream. blogging is the wave of the future. read about the past, present, and future of blogging at pcmag.com, or go directly to the blog tools article.

www.blogger.com

www.livejournal.com

2003-12-22T01:57:00.000-05:00

return to power...

ok, so xmas break has begun. im here with my computer, and i get it for good... that is, until christmas break terminates. until then, ill be here, talking to you good people, and finishing up my summer reading for next semester. i miss all my friends, and im mad at kim and lindsay. i wanted to sing christmas carols and such. i missed the xmas play too. i wanted to see that. all my friends were in it, and so was mark.

geoff came by and gave me my xmas pressie... DICE (thats what a d20 is, lizzy)! dad and i fixed up grandpas truck for him (thats our xmas pressie to him). it looks all shiny and new-like. grammy and grandpa are back in town now.

its 1:55am and im bored outta my mind. im goin to bed i guess. unless someone drops by my house unexpectedly. i wonder who would at this time of night. especially if they were already like two hours late. just kidding...

...nite all...

ep. 366 - xmas special

2003-12-22T00:07:00.000-05:00

must see...

"like a jump-spinning roundhouse kick to the side of your dome-piece, volcano high will smash everything you thought an mtv movie could be to pieces. it’s a hip-hop kung-fu flick with mind blowing special effects backed by an impressive cast of celebrity voices including andre 3000, lil' jon, snoop dogg, method man and mya. brace yourself, grasshopper."
- MTV.com

volcano high premiered december 21st @ 9:00 p.m. et

it airs again at the following times:

december 25 (xmas) at 3pm
december 28 at 1.5pm

watch it. the story is excellent.

link to MTV.com: volcano high
(sorry if that link to MTV.com breaks. i guess they prolly wont have that page forever. the site should be good for the next few weeks to a month tho)

2003-12-21T20:02:00.000-05:00

badger badger badger...

http://badgerbadgerbadger.com/

2003-12-21T19:09:00.000-05:00

from lotr...

it's like in the great stories, mr. frodo. the ones that really mattered. full of darkness and danger, they were. and sometimes you didn't want to know the end. because how could the end be happy? how could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? but in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. even darkness must pass. a new day will come. and when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. those were the stories that stayed with you. that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. but i think, mr. frodo, i do understand. i know now. folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. they kept going. because they were holding on to something.

2003-12-20T20:49:00.000-05:00

everybody to the limit...

2003-12-20T19:18:00.000-05:00

stairway to heaven:
by led zeppelin

there's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
and she's buying a stairway to heaven.
when she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
with a word she can get what she came for.
ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.

there's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
in a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
ooh, it makes me wonder,
ooh, it makes me wonder.

there's a feeling i get when i look to the west,
and my spirit is crying for leaving.
in my thoughts i have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
and the voices of those who standing looking.
ooh, it makes me wonder,
ooh, it really makes me wonder.

and it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
then the piper will lead us to reason.
and a new day will dawn for those who stand long
and the forests will echo with laughter.

if there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
it's just a spring clean for the may queen.

yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
there's still time to change the road you're on.

and it makes me wonder.

your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
the piper's calling you to join him,

dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

and as we wind on down the road
our shadows taller than our soul.
there walks a lady we all know
who shines white light and wants to show
how everything still turns to gold.

and if you listen very hard
the tune will come to you at last.
when all are one and one is all
to be a rock and not to roll.

and she's buying a stairway to heaven.

2003-12-18T17:53:00.000-05:00

first day of exams...

exams one and two are gone, and i did pretty well... i aced my computer exam, and (i think) i did well on my chemistry exam. there was no christmas concert in chorus, so she gave us the GAYEST pencil-and-paper exam. i think i did well on that too.

tomorrow is the day that decides my fate. i have to make a 97 to get an 84 as my final grade. its a spanish exam, which doesnt help me, and if i dont find all of my old tests, and return them to her, i automattically make a zero on the exam, so i need to take care of that too.

on the bright side, after first block today, im coming home, and i start christmas break. whether i have a computer or not is up to the final outcome of my spanish grade. *prays*

*leaves to study*

2003-12-15T16:11:00.000-05:00

the show must go on...

so the show has closed (one week ago, today), and xmas is in ten days. still exams near, and i think i might be screwed. i have alot of studying to do (for chem and span3), and i might not make the cut (if you know what i mean)

random tangent: i cant figure out what she meant the other day...

im bored, and i have to do some homework, so this post will probably be short. today was a bore; rev jesse jackson showed up at our flagpole. *cough* trespassing *coughagain* it was kinda funny. nonetheless.

exams near, so i must retire...

2003-11-29T09:38:00.000-05:00

to her:

i wonder what he'll be like. that upright, downright, forthright, close-shaved chin-up, right now marching down the proper approach to proper you...

2003-11-29T08:12:00.000-05:00

oh, what a beautiful morning...

ok, heres a lil mental check: parents are at the train station, dog is in garage, im running on three hours sleep, and yet, in light of all, it is still a gorgeous morning. i mean, the sun is shining, the police arent breaking down my door, and i havent committed any felonies recently. ^.- still, im bored. i need something to do. trust me, everyone here is awake right now, so its not too early to give chad a phone call and pull him out of this monotonous state of misery... please... i beg of you all...

but still, there are things that surpass all bounds, and make this a gorgeous morning, despite it all.

in unrelated news, christmas season is starting, and just like the old addage says, "its better to give to chad than to ask for stuff from him." so bugger off, all of you. just kidding. but seriously, i need money. i have only about $50, and i have quite alot of people to buy for, including two birthdays. im seriously f***ed right about now. no matter. ill make up a decent excuse or something. who the hell knows what ill do.

but this is wine \ that's all too strange and strong \ i’m full of foolish song \ and out my song must pour \ so please forgive this helpless haze i'm in \ i’ve really never been in love before...

technically, im still a failure at life. but im trying to get up the courage it takes to face my fears...

ep. 346

2003-11-28T20:10:00.000-05:00

okay...

dress rehearsals for guys and dolls start soon, so i wont be home til 8 every night. on the bright side, geoff and joey will be there, so i wont be completly bored. plus, geoff will prolly give me a ride home, so that should be fun. kim still needs to ride home with geoff, so she can see the fun shes missing. i need to go do work at grandpas soon. AND... i rented "viewtiful joe" for gamecube. its short, but good. i give it a good 3.5 out of 5.

i dont know what do about anything anymore. i am a failure at life, i swear...

i should call someone. i cant hang out with geoff or joey, cuz joeys in manhattan, and geoff might as well be exiled (cuz we wont hear from him til linzys gone). still, i dont have too many friends. ill probably just watch tv and go to bed early. its not like i have anything better to do.

anyone who knows me can call if they feel so lead...

g'night...

2003-11-23T21:14:00.000-05:00

-.-

i just made a list of all the qualities i look for in a girl, and i just figured something out. she is WAY too damn good for me, plus...

2003-11-22T18:51:00.000-05:00

*lovelove*

^.^

well, last night kim and i went on a "date"... all except for jaymes and jessica tagging along. i had fun ^.^. it was one of jaymes' only straight dates, and he made a good point: he gets farther with girls than he does with the guys. its funny, but very true. and we sang "guys and dolls" stuff all the way to the movie (we saw elf, by the way), and i bet them i could sing the high note on "ive never been in love before", and by high note, i mean the female high note, and i did, and everyone was impressed...

^.^

i think im off of my high for now...

2003-11-21T06:59:00.000-05:00

^.^

ahh... *lovelove*

everyone should be happy, because i certainly am. and i hope everyone has a great day (especially certain persons).

*lovelove* ^.^

2003-11-15T11:56:00.000-05:00

the race is over
by dave rodgers

i've been spending all my lifetime driving on my car
now i can see the way to fly high, that i can go far
one day i'm leaving my past behind
dancing in the fire of another life that i can try

the race is over time to discover brand new spaces
the race is over now and forever you can live it your way
the race is over time to discover dreams and places
the race is over now and forever you can live it your way

i've been searching for tomorrow, waiting for the sun
now i believe i made there never and it's time to run
one day i'm leaving my past behind
dancing in the fire of another life that i can try

the race is over time to discover brand new spaces
the race is over now and forever you can live it your way

i've been spending all my lifetime driving on my car
now i can see the way to fly high, that i can go far
one day i'm leaving my past behind
dancing in the fire of another life that i can try

the race is over, time to discover brand new spaces
the race is over now and forever you can live it your way

« initial d song lyrics »

2003-10-28T18:48:00.000-05:00

attention!

"guys and dolls"
coming to a stratford auditorium near you
beginning in december

starring:
» sky masterson - joey batts
» nathan detroit - chad waters
» sgt. sarah brown - kim alford
» adelaide - meghen clark

click for details

2003-10-18T01:14:00.000-04:00

time to beat: 21.245"

i did beat john at irohazaka, and there is nothing john can say that proves otherwise.

well, here i am at johns house to spend the night, and im making an entry in my blog (as u can tell). today was report cards. i was expecting great grades since i had been working so hard, but that would be an unreasonable request. i got an a, a b, and 3 cs; not low cs, very high cs, but cs nonetheless. it made me very angry. i almost broke my only remaining gamecube controller because of it. but that is all done now.

i thought i might lose my acting classes and musical because of it, and i very well could, since the topic of punishment has not been discussed, but no discussion has taken place, so it is looking good.

its kinda like one in the morn', and i have to say, im a lil tired.

trey got a new car. i am jealous, i admit it. it is a blue 1997 neon, that he got for 1.5k, which isnt bad considering the excellent shape the car is in. it really is a nice car... he still drives like a lunatic. he'll still just have to suck it up when i drive the barretta tho. cry me a freakin river.

i finally beat metroid prime... *dances around in purple thingy*

and... i currently hold the time to beat on the e class licence test on sega gt here at the cole's house. mr john has been trying for the better part of an hour to beat my time of 21.245". hes never gonna beat it. ^.^

i miss all my friends. i want to talk online to lizzy and kyle and layla and everyone else (sowwie if u wanted to be mentioned)...

*boredom* -.- *wanders off*

2003-10-07T22:10:00.000-04:00

damn you mother, damn you broccoli, and damn you wright bros.

2003-10-04T23:11:00.000-04:00

one day closer to dieing...

you SHOULD all know, but thats from les mis, and i have that song in my head ("at the end of the day"). breaking protocol, im just gonna write and write, til i feel im starting to ramble... here it goes...

everybody to the LIMIT

ok. ill start simple. i got to keep the musical and my acting classes. but unfortunately, as very few of you have noticed, im grounded from the computer, which is a big deal (im at johns tonight). but its all good. im making MUCH better grades in chemistry now, and i think i might just be a model student now... if only i hadnt waited to become this "model student"... i gotta go study my polyatomic ions in the morning. before church.

and then after church, i need to go by sara's to check out her car. shes selling her lebaron, and i might buy it. its automatic, but ill take what i can get. id like a manual, but we cant all have what we want.

i got cast as nathan detroit. im actually really happy because nathan lane played nathan detroit in the broadway revival of "guys and dolls", and frank sinatra was nathan detroit in the movie. skys got nothing on me. im glad that joey got cast as sky, and kim got cast as sgt. sarah brown. rehearsals should start soon. i cant wait.

i was at the mall today, and lizzy didnt even say hi. im sad. she said she was gonna come and see if i was there, but she decided not to. what a loser; and a dork. shes mean to me too. attempting to leave just when i get to talk to her and everyone else again. im online right now, and only she, and linz breifly, talked to me. -.- such is the price of infamy...

enuf... im done rambling...

NEW!: sbemail 85

2003-09-14T13:28:00.000-04:00

for those who need an initial d fix...

heres a site that has ALL of the initial d songs, from ALL of the initial d albums. saves some money (all of the cds together on import) would cost about $120

heres the site: http://lavieenrose.technicism.org/mp3/initail_d/

2003-09-14T12:24:00.000-04:00

found this...

funny pic of roger davis and mark cohen
its from a japanese page, so dont mind the obvious misspelling of "roger" as "rojar". its was kinda odd to read. but i think the pic is especially cute. ^.-

2003-09-12T16:28:00.000-04:00

hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia...

that word means something, and the fact of the matter is, i didnt make it up. it in fact is a paradox. why would a word meaning "an irrational fear of long words" be such a long word. wouldnt that be an unending cycle (the person is terrified of the name of their own fear). it seems kinda asinine.

...i dont own emotion, i rent...

so i went to go see big river. do yourself a favor... go to dockstreet theatre and go see this. it was really good. especially when ben and whitney kissed ^.^ (GO BEN!). it was really good. i got that "do you wanna go to heaven?" song stuck in my head, and i cant get it out, and then when i stop thinking about it for one minute, lizzy puts up her away message that has the quote from that song in it. its SO freaking annoying. ^.^ but ill survive.

we had a speaker from clemson in chemistry the other day. that was cool i guess. in spanish, i found out that frida kohla and salvador dalí were seperately, but in the same sense, freaks. they were both rampant sex maniacs, and they were both womanizers. ^.^ (thats not a joke, its true. frida kohla was a bisexual.)

the human condition i
rené magritte, 1934
i like this... just thought id share. i think im gonna start sharing artwork that i find...

2003-09-09T21:30:00.000-04:00

manifesto...

i wanna write a manifesto... mine would be like "avert your eyes, oh ye of high moral being". well, i found that funny, even tho no one else will. but thats ok. i seriously need to find out exactly what a manifesto looks like, then write one. i want to have my manifesto and my memoirs published. i still dont fully understand what a memoir is, but if its about me, it must be good, huh?

EDIT: the manifesto was lizzy's idea, but i claim full ownership nonetheless

anyways... today was boring...

i want some reproductions of francisco goya's works. he was this really good artist. he was very dark and demonic in his paintings, cuz they were all about his nightmares and such. its really freakin cool.

in drama we did some paper maché (sp?). it was messy, but fun as HELL. it was so awesome. nina kept getting pissed off when i got the elmers glue on her hands and sleeve. but overall, i got to tell off holly. any day i tell holly off is a good day in my book.

in chorus we did some riser work, and i think sarah is really mad at me for something. i dunno what, but she really doesnt seem to want to talk to me, and i feel bad. but she will tell me if its my fault... right?

chemistry there was a lab involving laser pointers. i wanted to blind melodie so much, but i didnt. i did however keep pulling out laylas hair... it WAS part of the lab, but we only needed one hair. i think i got like 15 hairs. it was fun.

ok, so i got home. went to dockstreet. kyle STILL drives like an asian. but we love him anyways. we did a very relaxing exercize involving "visualizing energy". and then we transported to a place we were comfortable with. and then we all laughed about something. but i didnt have anything. then frankie started laughing, and he has a really weird laugh. so i was laughing. then donnie diva mentioned "brandt", and i just lost it. i was laughing REALLY hard. it was great. we did some games and stuff, but thats about it.

then we took lizzy home. i think she was mad cuz we kept makin fun off her. tho those pigtails WERE sexy. lol... her house isnt as scary as she made it out to be.

and now im freakin here... end of story... goodnight...

2003-09-08T23:01:00.000-04:00

new sb email...

one of the best ive seen so far. check it out here. its strong bad's new children's book.

2003-09-08T06:18:00.000-04:00

sorry...

i know what ur prolly thinking... chad, you havent updated in 5 days. and you havent written a REAL entry in 9 days... actually, no one probably cares. oh well.

early monday morning. just gonna recap the weekend.

-= saturday =-
got up around 9 or 10 and did some chores. went to the mall with john around 1:30. played some initial d (cuz im addicted to that game, and he wanted to play, so we did). i beat him in the end. but trey actually has some skills, which is sad cuz he doesnt play that much. anyways, left the mall. joey came by my house. we did some work on my new york accent. still is sad. i have to get a better accent by the time guys and dolls comes around. i cant lose this part just because my accent isnt perfect. after joey left, we ate dinner, and then i went by his house to work on my character sheet for d&d (mike and tim were there), so i can play on the 13th. we were there til midnight. it was so much fun. i havent laughed that hard in a long time. mike and tim, combined with the raw, demeaning sarcasm of joey, really make for good jokes.

"no, its me rubbing my fingers together. what are u, some kinda moron?"

"see this island here. the really small one with hardly any population. thats where the people who CARE live."

but it was fun. moving right along to...

-= sunday =-
got up barely in time for church. went to church. service was like an hour and a half. then, i came home and chilled to about 3 or 4 where kyle picked me up to go to the mall. played initial d some MORE, and actually played some other games in the arcade (surprised the hell outta me too). came home. joey decided he wasnt going to audition for the phantom tollbooth at the summerville theatre. so dad took me down there. to make an annoyingly long story short, i didnt audition because the rehearsal dates conflicted with my classes at dockstreet on tuesdays. but i came home, attempted to get some homeword done, and relaxed.

now im here, telling the story. i feel like writing more, but ill do that later today when i have something worth my time to say...

2003-09-03T21:32:00.000-04:00

physics dont matter...

great quote: ITS AN EROTIC STORY! PHYSICS DONT MATTER! (shirts are floating in midair, stuff is just sittin on the walls, theres no up or down cuz ITS AN EROTIC STORY!) - corey

2003-08-30T15:07:00.000-04:00

stratford: 45 - hilton head: 6

the game was great, but this entry is about everything but football (mostly cuz im not a fan of football) so dont get ur hopes up about me sharing info about the game-winning play or anything...

well, when i got there, i hung out with justin (straight justin). we were talking, and i TRIED to buy a horn, but theyre not selling them yet, so im pissed at the band booster people. i want a FREAKIN horn. at least before the summerville game so i can be all supportive of my knights. four consecutive season wins. eat that summerville scum.

the halftime show sucked. but laylii was cute up there conducting. at the pep rally, she didnt have her gloves, and i was like "why doenst layla get gloves?" but she had them at the game. and they took away her platform. jerks. so she had to stand on the grass and direct. i felt bad for her. but it was still pretty cool.

the game ended, i went home, and all was right with the world.

2003-08-29T19:25:00.000-04:00

your eyes...

red! your eyes are red! you're a very distant
person, and you tend to hunger for power. in a
manga, you'd be the brilliant evil villan. nothing
wrong with that, although you may want to think
about toning down the killing.

What Color Are Your Anime Eyes?
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2003-08-29T06:11:00.000-04:00

ok, this is gonna sound stupid, but try it...

with your right foot, make clockwise circles on the floor. do that for about fifteen seconds. then, while still making circles with your foot, with your right hand, attempt to draw a "6" in front of you. what is your foot doing now.

2003-08-28T18:09:00.000-04:00

poll time...

just answer with the first answer that you agree with. i know it wont make sense, but just answer with the first one that you think is right. dont ask, its just important to me.

a. having something be a sure thing, but living knowing what COULD have been
b. taking a big risk, but knowing that you will almost definately be happy with the results
c. take no risks, suffer no losses.
d. give up hope of ever being happy and go hide away in a mountain or something

just leave ur response in my comment box at the bottom of this post. or just click here.

2003-08-28T16:45:00.000-04:00

does it ever feel like im recycling old blog titles...

it does to me. i can never think of good ones anymore. but then again, its like naming an essay or something; the title comes last. like id ACTUALLY remember to come back and add the title. id sooner go without a title than have to backtrack. but thats just me...

todays been pretty good. forgot my book in spanish, so i had to share with justin. as a matter of fact, no one at our group had their book but justin, so we all had to share his. it was funny actually. but the period was SO boring. spanish3 sucks!

drama was fun. i had to help set up the sound system which alone weighs a good 40 to 50 pounds, so that was no fun. but then i realized that that wasnt all of it. i still had to perform, AND disassemble the puppet stage. that was no fun either. but overall drama was cool for some reason. i dunno why.

had two tests in computer tech. got an 80 and a 105. that was cool. got some work done on my lab report. yay for free time. i like free time. free time is good. mr balzano isnt. but he was makin fun of cedric and cedric was making fun of him, and it gave me much joy to listen to it. i was pleased.

lunch was ok... i didnt get to talk to her... but i never get to talk to her... and no lizzy, not THAT her...

chemistry was boring again. i think i pissed layla off. but she got over it. and corey is talking again. and i think i have respect for andryzac now. maybe even haller too. diegel got the freakin' mensa puzzle before me. i wouldnt have ever gotten it tho. but i was close nonetheless.

dammit...

2003-08-27T22:39:00.000-04:00

a new feeling emerges...

your eyes, when we said our goodbyes, cant get them out of my mind, and i find i cant hide from your eyes, the ones that took me by surprise, the night u came into my life, where theres moonlight i see your eyes. how'd i let you slip away when im longing so to hold you, now i'd die for one more day, cuz theres something i should have told you, yes something i should have told you, when i looked into your eyes, why does distance make us wise? you were the song all along, and i before this song dies, i should tell you, i have always loved you... you can see it in my eyes...

2003-08-27T20:04:00.000-04:00

welcome to my nine levels of hell...

fine, i guess everyone else goes to purgatory...

General Assholes, Slow Drivers, and Arrogant People
Circle I Limbo

Goths, Freaks, and "Legions of Death"
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

Hippies, Tree Huggers, and Militant Vegans
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Sk8trz, Posers, and Wannabe Punk Rockers
Circle IV Rolling Weights

DMV Employees (all of them)
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Lawyers, Attorneys-at-Law, and Doctors
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

The Pope, Kim Jong Il, and Saddam Hussein
Circle VII Burning Sands

Walmart©, AOL©, Microsoft©
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Vash the Stampede
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

2003-08-26T20:39:00.000-04:00

gollum...

cold be heart and hand and tome,
cold be travelers far from home.

they do not see what lies ahead,
when sun is faded and moon is dead.

2003-08-26T17:16:00.000-04:00

dunno how anyones gonna take this...

...but i just, for the first time in a long time, felt completely and utterly content. i dunno why, and im POSITIVE no one cares, but for like maybe fifteen seconds, i felt happier than ive ever felt. its a shame those feelings dont come more often.

*sigh*

someone has to start leaving me messages. i know hardly anyone reads this, but everyone else gets replies. why not me?

2003-08-25T22:57:00.000-04:00

checkout my card, chad, thats the closest ull ever see this car...

geoff... grrrr...

today was pretty long. spent most of my time at school. fun fun fun. i was bored outta my mind. whodve known that tiffany was dating will?

today before school, i was harrassing donna about trey (my cousin), cuz she kept asking me to call him and tell him to get online so she could talk about "something important". so i told her i would; only i didnt. i dunno... maybe i just didnt care. oh well. geoff was at the lunch table. geoff is my source of all the greatest quotes. like the title for this entry. that was geoff. hes like the funniest person i know.

today in spanish, we did some bookwork, but more importantly, that is where quote number two takes place. sra mallard always requires us to say EVERYTHING in spanish, and geoff musta forgotten what all the words were when his book fell apart. hes like "umm... yo tengo -- booka de broken". it was great. we were all laughin. what a riot...

drama was good. did some work. coloring, painting, drawing... all bunches and bunches of fun.

chorus was fun. we did musical theory... which is basically "sight singing for dummies". it was fun messing with sarah tho. shes so spastic. its weird. u can just like poke her, and shell start freaking out. it really is grounds to be committed. quote number three is...

chop: (to ms cone) ok, heres the thing... im seriously lightheaded...

lets see... didnt do anything in chem.

had dramaclub afterschool. ms matt told me i could still get my letter, cuz i didnt cuz of a technicality. that, and im running for vice pres. i was forced to do it. i didnt want to. they made me. im running against my will. if anyone wants to save me, and they read this, PLEASE vote for darryl. hes much better than me, and everyone loves him. i promise itll be a much better vote. please do NOT vote for me. or you could, and i could do horribly as a vice pres. your choice.

so i came home and did all my homework. i had to do a few tests on grammar on www.studyspanish.com. they sucked. then i did a grade sheet and printed it out to get signed. dads a NAZI. and then i did my script for peter rabbit, and printed six copies for all the people in my group. i wouldnt have guessed. oh well...

mowed the lawn... that was fun. had jerk chicken for dinner. that was good. umm... dads a NAZI. and a communist. hes both. a communazi... ok that works...

lizzy is evil and mean and crazy. and so is kyle, and they are like brother and sisters that are children of satan in a metaphorical sense... *sniff*

baii. nite...

2003-08-24T22:59:00.000-04:00

baii.

goodnight world...

have a wonderful night, and a wonderful day tomorrow. im gonna go to bed and sleep of beating geoff in my 85, and it will happen one day, and theres nothing he can do about it. mwahahaha...

baii.

2003-08-24T17:11:00.000-04:00

the story of kendo ninja arasa...

no just kidding. this isnt the right outlet for such tales. but im bored. so ill write. todays been pretty uneventful so far. i drove dad to sams. when i went to get back on interstate, this jerk decided that the accel lane was running out, so hed get in my way. lil bastard. such a jerk. but u know, its all good.

got my computer up on the network, so i can finally get all my old files. and i showed lizzy my rent backdrop. its old news, but im still proud of it.

im watching grease. good times. ill never forget this film. one of my top 20. i still havent finished my list of top movies at www.ymdb.com. i think im gonna go do that now.

EDIT: click here for my top twenty movies of all time

2003-08-24T00:47:00.000-04:00

boredom at quarter til one...

i was playing with the random anime name generator, and i came across one that i like, and i think i might start using it for maybe an online saga of stories, or comics if i can learn to draw (not likely), but i like the name, and i think it might be fun to write about anime stuff with it. lol... anime stuff rocks...

the name is: kendo ninja arasa (i love it)

well see. if i do write something, ill let u all see it, maybe.

2003-08-23T22:39:00.000-04:00

relatively short day for me...

today was quite an adventure. i am $20 poorer, and much MUCH happier. it was fun. it all started around 10:15.

so i woke up, realized i was supposed to go over to momma batts to help with yardwork. well i was an hour and a half late; there was no way that i could still get there in time to have any work left. so i just decided to get on the computer. lizzy was there, and i think kyle might have been. but they abandoned me for the "wavewash"... a carwash set up by summerville to wash cars to collect money for the poor... i mean, for summerville arts dept... same thing...

so im sitting around, eating, watching tv, cleaning out my closet, when geoff calls, and says he had just gotten up. mind u, this was about 11. i was laughin, but he said he was gonna go see if there was more work to be done. there obviously was, cuz they were there til like 3:30. grrr... i coulda done some work. but dad had to get all indignant on me about how i should be doing something "productive" with my time. like what?

well, geoff and joey got done, and picked me up. we had five people in geoffs fourteen-year-old car... that has no struts... so we had to divide up spaces like "a sailor packs a ship"... weight distribution. it was a real adventure. expecially because geoff drives like a maniac. but it was fun.

then we got to the mall and started doin some racing. racing is fun. joey and geoff raced the most. several people came up. one of them was named chuck i think. he seemed kind of arrogant, but joey says hes just playin around, so he didnt bother me too much. then another dude came up, and he was a good racer. and then this last dude came up. now mind u, i was serious about racing, so i was in no mood to be messed with. this guy named "john" comes up and starts talking shit about his "skills". so he raced chuck (who is like the best, even with his crappy evo). now for anyone who doesnt know anything about initial d, they were racing akina, which is a very difficult course in my opinion. so they get to the five hairpin turns, and the guy accidentally pulls a 360 on the fourth one, and then tries to pass blame away ("well, the curb got in my way cuz the steering wheel is loose" or something stupid like that). at least he got what was coming to him.

i saw lizzy too there. it wasnt like spontaneous, we planned it, but it was cool nonetheless. her little friend is weird tho. but it was fun to hang out like old times. we talked about the trampoline guy, and carebears, and bad driving, and it was like old times. but lizzy thinks "she bores me". lol thats funny. not true tho, lizzy, if u decide to read this.

she bought me a zelda pin. that was sweet of her. love you lizzy. its cool. its on my bookbag now. it says "legend of zelda" and it has a brown-haired link... just like the old tv show. hot topic always surprises me. like their ATHF, sealab, and zelda t-shirts. and the simpsons t-shirt with ralph saying "im gonna remove your liver bones." good times...

baii.

2003-08-23T22:00:00.000-04:00

wanna see...?

heres a pic of my baby (from the initial d game). it looks JUST like my levin sr. shes a beauty. another 7000 points and i should get my racing stickers, so im happy. my levin is so pretty. i beat john on ukui, but i lost to geoff by like an inch (literally). i was gainin' on him too. grrrrr...

they should have some initial d stuff on newgrounds

heres a shinobi rip thats REALLY cool if ur bored:
SOULMECH - shinobu

2003-08-23T11:52:00.000-04:00

"dangeresque II, this time its not dangeresque I"...

metal slug... what a quality classic. ill never forget metal slug. this guy didnt either. check out these quality remakes of the old games, brought to you by www.newgrounds.com (SLOGAN: start your day the violent way). these are pretty violent. unnecessarily violent, so if ur easily offended, just dont go.

metal slug: rampage (part 1)
metal slug: rampage (part 2)

the following are games to relieve some aggression. all different categories. most of these games are not for anyone who
a) is faint of heart
b) doesnt like lots of blood
c) has issues with reality
d) needs to seek therapy

excitebike: trouble on the track
crazy shuttle (VERY violent)
more coming soon...

2003-08-22T19:28:00.000-04:00

secret eating...

i drive the 85 now (levin sr). i like it. its good for drifting... poor acceleration. i still could never beat geoff or joey. ever. i think im gonna scan my card and put it up for viewing, cuz its so cool. its the bestest.

today has been rough. its not even worth discussing. its just stupid.

miranda, if u read this: i give up. i wanted to talk about it and work this all out, but if ur not going to even acknowledge my presence on this miserable planet, then i give up. i have washed my hands of this entire ordeal. i give up... you win... i hope that makes u feel MUCH better.

im just so tired of this. two days, and still nothing. it makes me depressed.

baii.

2003-08-20T21:20:00.000-04:00

ultima swordchucks...

dont ask. sword chucks rock tho. i found this kick ass ASCII artwork of some ultima swordchucks...

´¯¯¯¯¯\\___,,,,,,,,,,,,,____//¯¯¯¯¯`
<====}}zzz-oooooo-zzz{{====>
,_____//¯¯¯¯´´´´´´´´¯¯¯¯\\_____,

today was interesting. heard lots of stories about what happened between miranda and i. some of which were sadly true, some which were just lost in the translation (i refuse to accuse anyone of slander), but there were some things im just trying to forget, and some things i regret. nonetheless, i cant wait til this akward stage is done with. its really annoying.

welcome to homestarrunner.net -- "its dot com!"

theres a new strongbad email thats really funny. go watch it. but if you cant the system might be down. THE SYSTEM IS DOWN, YO! lol...

bahleeted...

2003-08-20T20:56:00.000-04:00

christmas...

starting to think 'what should i get for chad'? no? too bad...

heres a short list of items from 8-bit theatre (www.nuklearpower.com):

black mage shirt
(what!)
fighter shirt
(sword chucks, yo)
red mage shirt
(the character sheet is mightier than the sword)
thief shirt
(your hp or your gp)

2003-08-20T06:53:00.000-04:00

*sniffles*

the sun is shining, a new day is peaking out and smiling, and i feel like a dick. i dunno what to do. im gonna have to face her, and i dont know what to say. its not the end of the world, but it feels like it. i dont feel good, or liberated, or even very much alive, but i know that i will conquer this, in my mind and in my heart. i will live, and i will survive.

someone please just shoot me now.

lets see what happened yesterday worth telling. umm. i had some quizzes in spanish. did puppet shows in drama, sang in chorus (i sang my audition song; she said it was beautiful other than the fact i keep getting tense). and in chemistry i did some minor work, and played worms on corys calculator. thats all i got. thats the little i can remember that doesnt get clouded in by what happened that night.

i broke up with miranda.

i dont want to say much about it because everything i can type either sounds superficial, callous, or just makes me feel even more like a dick. but all i can say is it didnt end the way i wanted it to. i wanted for it all to end like in the movies or on tv, where theyre like "but we can still be friends". now shes gonna hate me for the rest of her natural-born life. and for good reason. i dont blame her if she resents me. actually, i hope she does... i deserve it...

dick!

2003-08-19T18:43:00.000-04:00

do not tread on the toes of kings, instead invent a better hovercraft

a few more links for your viewing pleasure...

(homestarrunner.com) system is down...
(homestarrunner.com) challenge and fighting
(homestarrunner.com) fluffy puff (scary)

final fantasy singalong

2003-08-19T16:06:00.000-04:00

close every door...

close every door to me, hide all the world from me,
bar all the windows, and shut out the light.
do what you want with me, hate me and laugh at me,
darken my daytime, and torture my night.

if my life were important i would ask 'will i live or die?',
but i know the answers lie far from this world.

close every door to me, keep those i love from me,
children of israel are never alone
for i know i shall find, my own piece of mind,
for i have been promised, a land of my own.

just give me a number, instead of my name,
forget all about me, and let me decay.
i do not matter, i am only one person,
destroy me completely, then throw me away.

if my life were important i would ask 'will i live or die?',
but i know the answers lie far from this world.

close every door to me, keep those i love from me,
children of israel are never alone
for i know i shall find, my own piece of mind,
for i have been promised, a land of my own.

2003-08-19T15:43:00.000-04:00

quotable quotes:

darryl: how do they measure light in a vacuum cleaner?
ms kless: not a vacuum, a VACUUM...

geoff: do not tread on the toes of kings, instead, invent the surfboard
tim: no, thats already been done, how about a better hovercraft?
geoff: whatever...

freddie: chad haller's last name has now been changed to H-A-L-L-A-apostrophe (halla')

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2003-08-18T21:33:00.000-04:00

the dante's inferno test has banished you to the second level of hell!
here is how you matched up against all the levels:

level	score
purgatory (repenting believers)	moderate
level 1 - limbo (virtuous non-believers)	moderate
level 2 (lustful)	high
level 3 (gluttonous)	moderate
level 4 (prodigal and avaricious)	low
level 5 - river styx (wrathful and gloomy)	low
level 6 - the city of dis (heretics)	very low
level 7 (violent)	high
level 8- the malebolge (fraudulent, malicious, panderers)	moderate
level 9 - cocytus (treacherous)	low

take the dante's inferno hell test

2003-08-17T16:51:00.000-04:00

ok... first the crying... THEN the rage...

note: all these links go to newgrounds.com, which for those of you who dont know, does contain some objectionable content, although all of the movie links im gonna put up are moderately appropriate. more importantly, newgrounds has sold its soul (also known as advertising space) to some very *cough* disreputable places. as long as you dont object to any of that, you should be ok. just try to enjoy the movies, and ignore the advertisements. sorry in advance if it offends you. more importantly, GET OVER IT...

note: anything with a star could be considered mildly objectionable

the following are for the sake of boredom:
(homestarrunner.com) TROGDOR the BURNiNATOR
mario twins official
defend your castle (game)*
campaign kombat*

return of ganondorf <--- ubercool... watch it...
kill the old man (from zelda)*
kill the chicken (from zelda)
evil link*
singalong (song by therabbitjoint)

xiao xiao movies: 3*, 5* 7* (part one of XXSaga), 8* (part two of XXSaga)
xiao xiao games: 2*, 4*, 6*, 9*
xiao xiao cityplaza ad

2003-08-16T21:18:00.000-04:00

im good at the baretta...

well, at least i dont stall out anymore. thats always a plus. anyways, i washed the cars and now theyre all clean. check them out.

>> chevrolet baretta (pic one)
>> chevrolet baretta (pic two, not really different then pic one)

2003-08-15T23:20:00.000-04:00

your score is: 35/50

others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. they see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. they enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

take this test

2003-08-15T22:35:00.000-04:00

sock puppet...

i had named my sock puppet "stiny". for anyone who has actually seen me for the past few weeks, i am about to show you what the stiny joke is all about. if you wish to be enlightened...

...click here.

2003-08-15T20:47:00.000-04:00

uncle sam wants YOU to join the ranks of the dead...

happy 17 bday trey!!!
today was pretty uneventful. dont really got TOO many stories to share.

went to school. sra mallard doesnt seem to be a very nice person. shes very cold in my opinion. but thats just me. drama was fun. i made lil fuzzles. im gonna make a photo page on geocities. so i can start takin some pics and showin em off. who knows, maybe dadll actually let me use his freakin' digital camera... he wont let me take it to school! grrrrr...

- EDIT: i took a pic of mr fuzzle. look!

chorus was fun. we went to ms terry's (?) office to sing her happy birthday. she said she was 39, but i know she was lying... she had to be at LEAST 40... grr on liars...

at lunch, gary almost killed me. that bastard is too strong.

in chemistry we did a cool lab about "identifying changes in aqueous chemicals", but everyone was too loud and ms kless said we wont be doing another F***IN' lab. thats the only thing i even enjoy about chemistry. she was prolly just mad. she wont deprive me of my random experiments. please dont ms kless. i need my experimentation on small animals.

man's best friend drinks from the septic tank.

when i got home, i sat down at my computer, and other than dinner and joyriding (ill get to that), i havent left since. its great. new computer, new sound system, new hardware stuffs, and soon, a new monitor. life is grand.

¿qué hora es?

trey and i went joyriding today because, being his 17th bday, and him having just got his full licence, he is now on the road for good, and frankly, im scared. hes very cautious, but in about two weeks he wont be. hell be tearing ass down interstate soon nuff. god help us all.

well im gonna go set up a geocities account to do pics on
byes all...

2003-08-14T17:39:00.000-04:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

2003-08-13T22:10:00.000-04:00

hell is a place for lawyers and democrats...

today was a riot!!! homeroom for an hour. mr cain's class was fun tho. we were feeding mr. cain's eels with meal worms, and the eel was eating them like slowly, and it was fun to watch. but the damn fishes kept stealing the meal worms before the eel could get to them, so that sucked. and corey had cool games on his calculator like worms and zelda. damn him!!!

i went by mom's office. shes cool. momma batts is the coolest... :D

in spanish we went to the computer lab, and my keyboard was so gay. it hated me. it wouldnt work, so i had like quarter the time to do the document, and it ended up looking crappy. oh well... not much i can do.

in drama, we were talking about starting on our puppets. ours is gonna be the shoemaker and the elves. i still need to look up that story to see what its all about. lol... i should prolly go do that...

nah...

ALL YOUR BASE ARE BELONG TO US!!!

chorus was fun. sarahs in my class now. that was awesome. i walked in, and she was there, and it was funny. she was all confused on the warmups. but it was ok.

in chemistry, we got to see her light magnesium on fire, and it was awesome. we did some review, and then we did some lame-ass worksheet.

i came home. ooh... i ate, drank, and ate some more. we had chicken quesadillas. went for a walk, and so on. our phones were down for a while. and i was gonna call miranda... not my fault... sorry miranda...

im gonna go. im tired.

2003-08-11T21:29:00.000-04:00

heel and toe driving...

for those of you who know what all the following means, then enjoy this article i got offline about initial d. for the rest of you, ignore the following, because it wont make too much sense.

__,.--== heel and toe driving ==--.,__

for a while now there has been a misconception about heel and toe, and the drifting style. heel and toe and drifting are not the same thing. people watch initial d and see takumi using heel and toe before he performs his magnificent drift around the corner, and they automatically decide that he used heel and toe to accomplish that amazing drift. well in a way he did, but not like people think he did. heel and toe is used to maintain speed when exiting out of a drift or any kind of real sharp turn. to drift takumi just simply shifts the weight of the car, (because he is that highly skilled) but how do you think he wins such mind boggling battles with an out dated eight-six? the truth is that he can enter and exit the corner at tremendous speeds. when entering a corner heel and toe is used to raise the rpm of the car. when takumi is drifting he is not applying the gas. so what do u think would happen if heel and toe was not used? i'll tell you what would happen, he would exit the corner at a much slower speed then he entered it. when heel and toe is used, the clutch is pushed in and the toe of the foot is put on the brake while the heel is on the gas raising the rpm. after you enter the corner you let off the gas, clutch, brake, etc. and use whatever technique you use to drift or just simply go around the corner really fast while using grip driving. whatever the case may be, heel and toe can be used for both. while exiting the corner you will come out at a much faster rate because you have raised the rpm which slowly drops while going around the corner when you are not stepping on the gas. when you exit the corner you should feel no jolt, or force on the car because it should be timed so that the rpm drops back down to where it was at when you entered the corner. this way you do not lose any speed. this technique is one that takes great skill and practice, but it is the best for optimum power. so in the future, let's not confuse heal and toe technique and drifting to be the same thing.

2003-08-08T23:37:00.000-04:00

all your base are belong to us!!!

site of the evening: www.planettribes.com - good times. havent been to this website in over two years, but im back

quote of the evening: "all your base are belong to us" - refer to website above

im tired for good reason. not here to share, just thought id let everyone know im tired.

me = tired tired x me = tired²

im not here long, just mainly wanted to share the link. g'nite.

2003-08-06T01:11:00.000-04:00

my schedule (as of 08.06.03):

semester one
period 1 - spanish3h
period 2 - drama2
period 3/a - chorus3h
period 3/b - comptech
period 4 - chemistry1h

semester two
period 1 - childlit
period 2 - precalH
period 3/a - chorus3h
period 3/b - comptech
period 4 - english3h

- edit -
forgot to mention: homeroom

2003-08-06T00:35:00.000-04:00

im really weak... dammit, dammit, dammit...

wanna see if your GBM could beat the sh*t outta my GBM? well... it prolly can, cuz mine is a pussy (sorry for poor useage of language, but after you see mine, youll understand) try for yourself by clicking here, or you could just bypass that and assume youve won already.

whatever the outcome, post your selected name and battle result. :) if you want a better challenge, try clicking here. that one is actually a bigger challenge. no one ever said that your GBM had to be named your christian name. whatever to that layla. check the results of layla and i's battle here... bitch...

2003-08-05T23:43:00.000-04:00

"would you help me?"

mood: :P

quote of the day: "length, width, and now, for a limited time only, depth..." - strong bad

so much to say, and so much free time to completely stretch it out into.

okay. lets start with some of the easy stuff first. our showings of joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat went excellent. id like to begin by thanking everyone i invited for coming. *thinks* wait, i take that back, no one but john and miranda came. thats about one tenth of the people i invited. oh well... whatever. it was an excellent show, with or without them. i dont need them. i dont need them!

the girl who played potiphar's wife is gonna be going to stratford. shes nice. but then again, shes gonna be a freshman, so who knows how shell screw things up?

uhh... i got a new computer. thats sweet. its a dell dimension 8300. 256m of RAM, 60gb of disk space. and so on and so on. its sweet. prolly gonna just give the old one to trey. he needs a computer, and he doesnt have one of his own, except that piece of sh*t he used to have. not any more.

i like my new comp... its black... :)

i cant think of anything im missing really. thats about it. tomorrow ill be going to the mall. maybe stop by hot topic for some of the cool adultswim merchandise. maybe go by the arcade to check out the new initial d game there. maybe grab some lunch. well see what happens.

goodnight...

2003-07-24T18:31:00.000-04:00

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their butt to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is having a cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No, Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the floor.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it.

8. When people say "life is short". What the heck?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here dipstick?

2003-07-24T18:30:00.000-04:00

do i look like the kind of person who is going to spend every damn day at a camp just to come home to tell you losers about it? every time? well, i wont anyways so there

2003-07-16T08:32:00.000-04:00

"we have never liked him all that much before"...

site of the day: www.jdennis.net - download deadaim. its great, and very cheap for the services. try it out.

2003-07-12T23:17:00.000-04:00

paradoxical...

If you are not reading this sentence then I have not written it.

the following is from the island of knights and knaves where knights always tell truth whereas knaves always lie:

- anybody on the island says "if im a knight then condition p is true." then the speaker must be a knight and condition p must be true.
- A makes the following statement: "if i am a knight then so is B." what are A and B?
- someone asks A, "are you a knight?" he replies, "if i am a knight then i'll eat my hat". must he eat his hat?
- A says, "if i am a knight then 2+2=4." is A a knave or a knight?
- A says, "if B is a knight then i am a knave." what are A and B?

NOTE: can someone please figure that out for me. it shouldnt be too hard. i THINK that B is the knave and A is the knight. figure it out. remember: knaves ALWAYS lie, and knights ALWAYS tell the truth.

2003-07-12T20:39:00.000-04:00

sunday, sunday, someday...

site of the day: hell, give www.charlestonstage.com a try. its pretty good. info on where i spend all my days now.

quote of the day: "men are from earth. women are from earth. deal with it." - tim's away message

i finally began attending my drama camp, so ill be writing far less. not that i have a giant fan base that'll care anyways. -.-

im cast as the characters simeon and the butler in charleston stage's upcoming performance of joseph and the amazing technicolor dreamcoat. click here for information.

ok enough with the boring stuff. im really enjoying the classes. the show is going to be excellent, andthe guy who plays joseph sounds EXACTLY like donny osmond. hes actually (even tho he got my part) very, VERY good...

im tired. all these seven hour days in mt pleasant working on joseph really make me tired. i was spending the night at john's house last night, and my plan was to stay up late, if not all night, but i passed out at 12:30. i was tired from all the work we did. but its fun, so i enjoy it. i actually look forward to it every day. the only drawback is that i end up missing miranda. *sniff*

im tired so screw you all... (just kidding)

2003-07-08T12:45:00.000-04:00

catch up...

site of the day: www.bored.com - just as the name implies. its a pretty good site too. check it out. not that u HAVE to... well... yeah you do...

quote of the day" "there is no spoon" - the matrix

just tryin to play catch up... sorry for my absence. most unavoidable.

i finished harry potter. excellent book. i need to start my summer reading books. john's outta town, and i miss miranda. (redundant but true). i also got to be with miranda the other day. i watched fireworks with her, and she came over one day (^.^), and we also went out for ice cream the other day. at least summers not keeping us apart THAT much.

i love miranda.

i have been doing alot of yardwork lately, and its pissin me off. i wish i didnt have to but i do. moms on a yardwork cleanup-spree, and dad and i are getting dragged into it.

ill write about today later... f*** it for now...

2003-07-02T00:39:00.000-04:00

lowered expectations #39...

site of the day: www.runescape.com - yet another shameless plug by yours truly. its a great MMORPG. give it a shot, and you might be pleasantly surprised.

quote of the day: "tell me a dirty story..." - colin quinn on "tough crowd"

this one goes out to the one i love...

today was boring. im gonna look into buyin an MP3 player. that might be cool. i finally got a dvd rack, for my 14 (count 'em, 14) dvds. life is boring.

im so f***in bored. NOTHING happened today. i read maybe fourty pages of my book. THATS ALL! that was the highlight of my day! i am so pathetic

but i love miranda... and thats ALL that matters...

goodnights...

2003-06-28T00:23:00.000-04:00

deep thoughts...

whether they ever find life there or not, i think jupiter should be considered an enemy planet. \ way i think you can tell if you have a curse on you is if you open a box of toothpicks and they all fly up and stick in your face. i dont think there is a better method than that. \ if you define cowardice as running away at the first sign of danger, screaming and tripping and begging for mercy, then yes, mister brave man, i guess i am a coward. \ one of the worst things you can do as an actor, i think, is to forget your lines, and then get so flustered you start stabbing the other actors. \ anytime i see something screech across a room and latch onto someone's neck, and the guy screams and tries to get it off, i have to laugh, because what is that thing?! \ higher beings from outer space may not want to tell us the secrets of life, because we're not ready. but maybe they'll change their tune after a little torture. \ i guess the hard thing for a lot of people to accept is why God would allow me to go running through their yards, naked, yelling and spinning around. \ if you ever get some outer-space guy in a headlock, and his head starts throbbing and glowing different colors, don't let you. that just means the headlock is working. \ to become a knife thrower in the circus, they probably don't let you start off throwing at a live woman. they start you out with a little girl. \ if your friend is already dead, and being eaten by vultures, i think it's okay to feed some bits of your friend to one of the vultures, to teach him to do some tricks. but only if you're serious about adopting the vulture. \ i remember one night i was walking past mom and dad's room when i heard them talking about how they might not have enough money to pay their bills that month. i knew what i had to do. i went and got my piggy bank and buried it in the backyard, where they couldn't get their mitts on it.

2003-06-27T15:53:00.000-04:00

this song always makes me cry...

site of the day: www.blogger.com - get your own blog! my blog is powered by blogger, and the service and tools are very user-friendly. recommended. sign up today, now that site renovations are completed.

quote of the day: "the cure was like your goth startup kit" - daisy fuentes on "i love the 80s" on VH1

on and on \ does anybody know what we are looking for \ another hero another mindless crime \ behind the curtain in the pantomime \ hold the line \ does anybody want to take it anymore \ the show must go on

well, today seems like its gonna be a vaguely unproductive day. i miss miranda. i was supposed to have her come over today, but dad has to work late, so that probably wont be happening. i miss my miranda... *sniff*

whatever happens i'll leave it all to chance \ another heartache another failed romance \ on and on \ does anybody know what we are living for

i read my book last night. the ENTIRE book. all 800+ pages. (not really, im just kidding). i only read about 150 pages. so far its an excellent book. yay for harry potter! ^.^

my soul is painted like the wings of butterflies \ fairy tales of yesterday will grow but never die \ i can fly - my friends

i think ill write more later. love you all, especially miranda...

i'll top the bill \ i'll overkill \ i have to find the will to carry on \ on with the \ on with the show \ the show must go on